A Mother Faces Her Daughter’s Enemy – Depression

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I watch her.

She walks slowly.
She moves as if the whole world is on her shoulder.
She cries and I hold her close.
I tell her we will get through this.
I don’t think she believes me.
The truth is I don’t think I believe myself.
I don’t know how to reach her.
I don’t know what to do.
I hide behind work, television and the computer.
She sleeps in the back room – the room of depression.
She will not come out to join me.
I don’t go there. It hurts too much.
I am helpless.
I pray.
He answers.
He is the answer.
Nothing is too difficult for Him.
I trust Him.
He is still Sovereign.
He will do what He will do.
I watch her.
She walks slowly toward me.
She moves as if the whole world is on her shoulder.
I hold her close; capture her tears and whisper in her ear,
“We’re going to get through this, Honey.
It’s going to be alright.”
And I believe it – she believes it too
We, together – mother and daughter – face another day because God does care.
An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheers him up. Proverbs 12:25

About Chris

BCW Guest Blogger Chris MalkemesChris Malkemes is a Christian, just like you. She’s not a pastor, missionary or elder. She’s found the secret in the Secret Place. Chris has an instructed ear and her tongue is the pen of a ready writer.

The Lord found Chris lost, alone, hopeless, helpless and homeless. She was raised in abject poverty, one of twelve children. With nothing more than a prayer of relinquishment she was delivered from bitterness, anger and so much more. Her uncle traveled hundreds of miles to bring her home, introduced her to Christ and sent her on her way.

Chris didn’t disappoint her Uncle. She worked hard to get her GED, enlisted in the Women’s Army Corps, seized a college degree and became a commissioned officer. Chris retired as a Major nearly a decade ago. She is a skilled facilitator, trained teacher and credentialed with the Assemblies of God. She married the love of her life nearly 40 years ago.  They have two adopted adult children and the best ever grand-dog, Jazzi Marie, who always comes to a whistle and the smell of good food.

Although Chris has no previous publishing credits, she writes today from the adventure of it all. Her calling: make the invisible God visible to hearts and minds.
She is fond of saying, “He treasures His treasure and His treasure I am.”
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  1. Mavis Chuma says

    Chris,thank you,this helps a lot of people to be open, about their struggles & family member’s

    As a believer,am sure you know,ALL things work together for good to those who love the Lod…….You are a winner.God’s children win all the time.

  2. Sweetly Broken Girl says

    Chris, Sorry to hear about your daughter’s struggles. I can relate. As an adult child of divorce (I have four “dads”), I struggled a lot with feeling like I belonged to a father, like I really mattered. And this carried over to my relationship with God, too, I have gone through my own depression on and off for a few years. I blogged about it at myimpressionisticlife.blogpot.com. And I wrote my life story at sweetlybrokengirl.blogspot.com (in the”Child of Mine” posts). Maybe your daughter would like to read about the lessons I have learned while dealing with this issue, too. It’s not an easy thing to struggle with because the pain is so deep inside of you, and it takes a lot of time to work through it and a lot of strength to bear up under it. But this is a journey that we have to walk with the Lord, because He helps us bear that burden. And it sounds like she has a great mother to help her, too. God bless you both. – Heather

  3. Sharon says

    Chris, this was beautiful – so poignant. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and you have captured exactly that feeling of carrying the whole world on your own shoulders. Fortunately, there is the Lord…oh yes, there is THE LORD!! And when the days are too overwhelming, He carries me and reassures me that He has me and won’t let go. And I believe Him…


  4. Tea norman says

    One of my family members and myself have suffered with Chronic depression. When you write your daughter walks slowly, I can see her. I pray she will come around very soon. You seem very positive. Surely, that will help. Your poem is very nice and fitting.

  5. Loree says

    I suffer with depression. It is like a wet blanket smothering me. I feel like I can’t do anything to make people happy, I can never be good enough. I just want to sleep. Because when I am asleep I dont worry.
    The verse that keeps me going is Phillipians 4:6-7.
    I will pray for you and your daughter.

    • Chris Malkemes says

      Loree. Thank you. My daughter is doing much better. They have finally balanced the meds. She is spending less and less time in her room. I thank God for your prayers and the prayers of friends and family. I will lift you up too. You sound like your strength and endurance comes from Him – there is not better comfort than the God of all comfort.

    • Sharon says

      Loree, yes, this is exactly what it feels like with me, too. Especially the sleeping to escape worrying. When I can sleep, that is. I’m sure you understand the curse of insomnia, too. But, the Lord is with us, and I also cling to the promises from Philippians, too.

      I also like this verse (from the Amplified translation:

      “Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully.” (1 Peter 5:7)

      Sometimes that *casting* involves nothing more than a whispered prayer, “Help me, Lord.” And He does.

      GOD BLESS!

  6. Bonnie Byrne says

    My heart aches with your daughter’s depression. Although I have never experienced that, I know several friends who have. It is paralyzing and emotionally disturbing to everyone. She is so fortunate to have such a loving and caring mom, who stands by her side. You and Bob both have been amazing! You all will remain in my prayers and I send you armfuls of blessings and angels to protect you. May God hold you in HIs arms, so you all can get through this. Bonnie XX00

    • Chris Malkemes says

      Bonnie. What a blessing I have found in your words of encouragement. She is doing so much better every day…one day at a time. We have been strengthened too. Your prayers are received in love. Again. thank you for you and your friendship.

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