Time to get a little personal. I had my first serious heartbreak when I was 18 years old. I thought it was the worst thing that could have happened in my entire life. I thought I would never be able to get over it, but I did. I am not saying it was easy, but it was worth it because here I am 2 years later, having learned so much about not only myself but the love I deserve. I am so thankful. In the moment, I thought dang this is awful, but today I look back and realize God had so much more planned for my life.
I was looking back through my journal today, and I found this devotion I did called: Pure. The devotion challenged me to make a list of things I wish to see in a guy and while making this list think about what type of guy out there is worthy of dating the daughter of a King? As I read back over my list… some of the things I included were a Godly man to walk with me on this journey, honest, handsome, loving, caring, someone to love me for who I am, someone to stand by my side, and someone that will truly open up his heart to me, etc.… As I continued to read on, I wrote “Remember, God’s timing is perfect. Do not rush into something that is not there. God will open the door when he feels like your heart is ready.”
Wow, I wrote these words, but I did not take them to heart at that time. But as I read back over them again, those words hold such value to me. I am so thankful that God is blessing me with this time of being alone. It is a time that he is allowing me to learn more about myself. He is preparing my heart in a way he has never done before because of me saying no I want this to be on my time. I was too afraid of being alone. But I have put that fear behind me. Even though at times it is difficult and even a little scary to just be patient and wait, you must remember that God’s plan is better. If God has not blessed you with the guy yet, just know God is preparing his heart, so he knows how to love you like the bible teaches us to.
In the words of Andy Stanley…. become the person that the person you are looking for is looking for. Allow God to have the time to shape your heart and teach you how to love, it will change the way you look at relationships. Promise.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. – 1 Corinthians 13:1-8
Two are better than one because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up! Again, if two lie together, they keep warm, but how can one keep warm alone? And though a man might prevail against one who is alone, two will withstand him—a threefold cord is not quickly broken. Ecclesiastes 4: 9-12
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. – Proverbs 3:5-6
So, future hubs….wherever you might be right now I just want you to know I am praying for you, and I cannot wait to walk this journey with you by my side. Quick side note: Hopefully you like dogs and kinda want a farm cause I mean I love animals, and I am sorry, but I am not a good cook. I only can make the 3 P’s…. Pancakes**, Pizza, and Pasta. Also, I hope you want to explore the world together. But really, I cannot wait to fall in love with you.
** Working on mastering this one still