not enough

You are not enough. It echos in my head.
The words spoken from the picture I have of perfection.
You are not enough. You will never be enough. Try harder, do better.

I glance at a crack across the top of the mirror, distorting the image.
I discover then count the cracks in my life. In my personality, my appearance, my relationships.
Just take some glue, and fix them. That’s what will make it enough.
Paint over it, it’ll look good.
Try harder.

But only from the outside. In reality those cracks are still on the inside.
The water seeps in, slowly.
Dripping of the perfection I’ll never reach.
I wrinkle my nose in disgust. At who I am. What I’ve become.

Oh the lie.
It’s so repetitive, yet undeniably real.
He whispers it over and over, until we believe it.

I believed I had the control.
I believed I could never be enough.
I believed in the lie.

The truth is simply.
I’m enough. I’m more than enough.
I am a daughter of God!
I am made by same God who makes the pretty skies I so adore.
I find my worth in Him.
My cracks disappear as the outpouring of His love heals.

So as the year ends and we reflect.
And the world tells us to make resolutions, change for the better.
Rest in the fact that you are enough.
Did you hear? Because sometimes we read, glossing over the words.
Muttering yeah, yeah. I’ve heard this a million times.
Believe it because it’s true.

YOU ARE ENOUGH.
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.
YOU ARE WORTHY.

Did you hear that?
Scroll up and read that again.
Do you hear Him? Your Creator?

Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows. Luke 12:7